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Thank you for the reply, I am glad your where not offened.
Unfortunately yes there is evidence to what they think and feel about me as a person and how I am just living my life the way I do. Also this is so hard when trying to start again in a new job because it is like why should we employ you when you have been out of work for a year and pretty much don’t have much to show for your life and also I can’t help it I am not the most happy person in the world and it pains me deeply to try and so that whole fake smile and be polite thing or cheery thing, what is expected of you. I gave up on humans long ago and all I would like is a quiet life and just to slog through just like the rest of you if possible but so far it is barrier after barrier and I am not sure if there is any more of me that anyone can ware away as I am pretty much gone as a person, feel like an outside shell of the remains of a human that I once was, and it appears I am not compatible with being refilled on my inside once again with the joy of living or being able to live as I once did and not be the remains of what I was or the shadow that I have appeared to left behind that hasn’t gone on with me, I really left myself years ago and believe me I have been trying to work through life one thing after another thing. Personally there is no room for acceptance of myself, I learnt that about three years ago how that done me no favours and if that was what I needed then I would be here at this point in time feeling like this with my life ending up like this.
Last edited by Mindinpieces; Nov 08, 2012 at 01:22 PM.
Reason: may still not make sense sorry
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