Just on the topic last therapy appointment I had my therapist wanted me to define who I am, and like what I want to do.....and I couldn't come up with anything, just progressively got more frustrated till she asked what was so frustrating about it. But then I don't really know what my sense of self was before.....seems like anything I've ever really tried to get into tends to be kinda short lived...or I am just trying to pretend to occupy my mind.

But yeah she(the therapist) wants me to try and get my sense of self back with her help, but I don't know what that would be....I mean what if deep down inside I'm a nasty person but I've just felt so vulnerable, powerless and pathetic its driven me to be 'nice' to people just so i don't piss anyone off. I mean I just don't know what to do if I come to a revelation like that since as of now I feel my intentions are mostly pure......can't say I've never been misleading but its not something I enjoy. She said the other idea was to just decide who I want to be and be that, but its hard when I simply don't really know.