Sorry you are feeling this way but believe me that you are not alone in how you feel! I feel like my life is falling apart (lost my job, barely leave the house) but I think you might come on this site like I do, because we know there just might be a better life out there. A lot of us know that unless you have been through depression, you will never understand how debilitating it is - and your parents may never understand. If you are able to get to a doctor and or therapist I would really try. Medication has helped many on this site and if you haven't tried them yet it might be worth it.

I often think about leaving this town and starting over somewhere new. You are not alone. Stay on this site. Let us know how you're doing.