|
Hi,
i feel like im sinking and dont know what to do to save myself.
i recently realized that during the past years i have slowly and unconsciously replaced self harm with food and now im addicted to it just like i was addicted to self harm.
i keep thinking about food all day, every day and i feel so bad and disgusting for always giving in and eating all what comes to my mind. it gives me relief for a little while but then i go back thinking about what i'll eat next and the relief it will give me and it all starts back againg.
then some days i skip meals and walk for many hours trying to consume all the calories but then i have to binge again. what do i do?
eat or self harm? i feel like i have no other options.
im seeing a therapist but he doesnt know about this, because up until now i thought i could control it and beat it by myself but now i realize i cant and this IS a problem to me and i want to overcome it but dont know how.
any suggestion?
please help me.
thank you
|