Leed and riotgrrrl: thank you so much for your replies. I consider myself a bit dangerous to myself when I'm left to figure out my own emotions which is why I'm glad there is a community like this to use as an outlet.

I am absolutely and completely happy with where I am and who I'm with. It's exactly why I'm treating this issue with kid gloves and a pipe wrench. I don't want there to be any awkward silences or harbored feelings between us. I've always told her when we first started dating that our relationship will be good as long as we stay open with each other. While I believe I've been completely open with no secrets, I'm not sure she has held up her end of the bargain. She still finds it difficult to tell me when something is wrong. She has also told me to wrench it out of her when she won't comply, but I feel horrible prying.

Leed: I will try compliments and self-esteem boosters over time, but I can't help but think she will still remember my comment. Like hiding a trump card or something. Then again, I've thought this with everyone, and I always try to stay on everyone's good side. I hate grudges, and harboring, and the thought that I've wronged someone. On the other side of the coin, I don't believe in karma; I just believe that there is good in most people, and that is what I try to appeal to.

riotgrrrl: I believe in poking fun without making accusations. In fact, that's what I always work toward in a relationship. In a way, I point out imperfections and quirks about who I'm with (humorously) so I can show that I'm happy with those things. She's a 5'2 to my 6'3, and I'd much rather have it that way. And I'm much more concerned with personality, compatibility, emotional stability than physical traits.

I just got back from work and I'm waiting for her to come home... I have some time to clean the apartment up. A good first step, I hope.

Thanks again, everyone. I will let you know how it goes.