My penpal, high school/college sweetheart and I have corresponded for almost 8 years now. I have met his lovely wife when he visted here. He is the Harvard grad Boston lawyer about whom I've written here before. We grew up together in rural coal mining Boone County WV under rather impoverished conditions, encouraging each other in our education and continuing contact until after college graduation. 30+ years later, we are still in contact. He has told me he will never leave his wife (who inherited a million+ estate, incidentally), but insists our contact is essential and that he loves me. His wife, who also has a high-powered job is away to China or some other exotic place in the next month. He has mentioned coming down here to visit. Since the initial meeting with him and his wife, I've actually seen him alone two other times when he was down here in WV for arbitration hearings. Each visit was loaded with sexual tension and attraction, which I resisted except for hugs and increasing kisses. We've talked about this in email and acknowledged our attraction. I believe, though, that this next visit would be morally wrong, leading to heartache for ME! ...seems sneaky...him coming down here while his wife is away.
I have to admit, I rely on his emails for emotional sustenance, being alone here and choosing to be so, yet yearning for emotional contact. With him alone I can be myself.
I will discourage him from coming down here to WV. Regarding the email contact, I do not have the strenght to stop it. He was away this past week to Cape Cod and not hearing from him, I felt a great void.
Let me hear your thoughts on this matter...particularly my email addiction to this man.
Patty