Hey Ali.
I get how it feels to feel guilty about being sad when you have a good life...but its not helping you. you are hurting from an illness and its not your fault and you didnt ask for it, so dont feel badly talking about it because it is the only way to heal. Give the medicine some time to kick back into gear. it will happen, your other doctor shouldnt have pulled you off so quickly, but give it a little bit sometimes it takes a few weeks. try little things though...talking even if its on here...going for a 10min walk each day, getting to your volunteer job...it all helps. feel better...PM me if you need to talk or anything. <3