I'm where you are too......or almost wasn't over the weekend but I came across this web site and believe me when I say if you will pour over the words that people have responded to in questions like yours(at least you are brave enough to put a question out there....i can't seem to do that have only responded to a couple like yours that touch something in me that isn't dead yet) you stay alive and put one foot in front of the other and make yourself face tomorrow.
Hang in there!