Thank you all for the wonderful feedback. I will give it a try. I do have a running conversation with myself to make myself do things I am afraid of. But it doesn't seem to help easy the fear. But you are right as long as I don't give in and stay totally homebound I am giving the fear less power.

I went to the therapist today and did my initial appt for IOP (Individualized Outpatient Programming). And needless to say I don't qualify for IOP. Instead I qualify for Day Treatment. The therapist said that she would turn cartwheels to get me the treatment that I need and as soon as possible. She said that I need to see a psychiatrist as soon as possible and get stablized as soon as possible. So once I am approved through my insurance I will be attending day treatment from 8-3:45 everyday for at least a week if not two. Why do I suddenly feel even more depressed about my situation. I even went and burned myself for the first time in nearly two months. It feels like my world is caving in on me, and I have no hope for survival.