I've realized something. So I've had headaches for 6 weeks, don't know why, and I just don't want to know why. The pain has become a substitute for any si, and sui. But now I'm a bit more concerned that I want turn to the medical people to find out what's going on in time....

Right now, the pain is bad, and right now I'm scared that getting treatment will lead to si and sui again. ARGGG and at the same time it's also impacting my life more than regular si would..

I'm just frustrated. and a bit scared.

I'll admit I was happy when their wasn't any appointments in the next week and a half.

I did talk most of this over with my T but just left me feeling anxious about even trying to get treatment. Yes I know it couldn't be something serious, but there is that chance that it is... But i can say I did call my gp.

so some of this was venting...