I've posted in this forum before but not without my own anxieties. You know, trying to keep it light so as not to appear invested...or...whatever.

I am resisting the urge to post in the the "You know you're borderline when..." thread as I have done before because I don't have an official diagnosis, but I must admit I am having trouble yet for reasons I can't really put a finger on....longer night, shorter days, colder temperatures, greyer skies, etc.

The most consistent diagnoses I have gotten are ADD and MDD, but I have always had trouble with the length and strength of my emotions. I most often feel something like "OMG!!!! IT HURTS SO MUCH RIGHT NOW!!!! WTF DO I DO?!?!". Being at an utter loss as to what to do, I do nothing but continue to feel like utter *****.

I guess I'm posting here because I can't reconcile the acuteness of my emotions with my diagnoses and because I have come to identify the most with some of the experiences that are described her and on other forums on BPD.

Any help for a lost soul?