Well I was told i was BP a few months ago. I must have had it for a while. i have no idea. i'm used to it by now, but i hate it. part of me wants to stay depressed for sum unknown reason the rest wants to be normal. i'm only 14 and my lifes been changing a lot lately. My parents are getting a divorce and i don't know whether to hate or like my dad (there is other reasons i prefer to keep to myself.) I don't know anymore. i think i must be crazy sumtimes. i don't know how to react to being Bipolar. i take meds but they don't work well. they only help with being less shy. but i still change on a dime. no one can relate to me. that's why i finally broke down and desided to get help from people who did. but i hate therapy so i figured discussing it with similar people was a good desicon. right now i'm feeling blank. like how i feel before i go manic or depressed. i was happier earlier so i don't know what to expect. hmm... morning awaits. i'll post more late suppose.