Dear FM,

Thank you for our session today. When I asked you to read to me today, I thought for sure it would be a children's book. You gave me the choice of entertaining, serious or some what serious. I was surprised when you gave me the choice of Frank McCourt's Teacher Man or Anne Heche's memoir: call me crazy.

Though there is no CSA in my background (nothing you've heard so far leads you to think so), you knew that I could relate to Anne's story as she remembered her childhood 's long forgotten memories, thawed from a deep freeze. Are they real memories or are they lies she made up? After all, no one that could confirm them would confirm them, the shameful painful memories. Yes, the story sounds familiar. I look forward to the next chapters.

Also, thank you for helping me get rid of the shame, and fear I have been holding all these years for my mom. You said you were thinking about how to go about this, and the work we did today with shame allowed the fear I was holding for mom, and the family to be expelled like the release of a painful afterbirth.

Ms Heche says,"My belief is that healing is possible, for every child of abuse. By healingI mean living fully, as a free, healthy, and loved human being, without shame of the past. It takes work, work and commitment, to yourself , to the child that was treated with disrespect; to the person that deserves love in your life the most. YOU."

You said that WE are getting there, and I can feel it. I took the chance of seeking friends and understanding on the forum by posting, etc. there are some that have cared about me. I am grateful to them. I always wanted to be a part of the couch, but I'm okay without it. I'm willing to continue to take my chances snuggled up to you on the couch. Because, on your couch today I got the gift of: MOTHER. Thank you, FM. You are amazing!


Love,

GTGT