Also... are you into any art at all?

Because you seems so uberanalyctical... and arts and music are not rational means. It's not 68BPM/use the word love three times and use this and that instrument, pitch your voice in the right moment... and people gonna love it!

Most artsy people are hopelessly impractical. While techincal people are nitpicky about arts (I knew on woman with technical education who was irritated by asymetric flowers).