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Originally Posted by cookfan56
Toki -- it seems you are having some powerfully emotional dreams. Drinking, and then the ex (?) I still have dreams of an ex that I was with over 25 years ago! Dreams out of nowhere. And I have been married to the same guy (not the guy from the dream) for 25 years. Thank God I no longer have drinking dreams often, but I had one a couple months ago. I dreamt that I was hiding bottles all over my house, I had tremendous guilt, then I was caught. Man, I hate those dreams.
Now really is a good time to go to a meeting and share. I also know what it's like to be in social situations and feel like you can't talk or anything. That's how I feel when my social anxiety and depression are very bad. But put one foot in front of the other. When your depression makes it impossible to go to thiings like church functions, then make your only priority getting to a meeting. And doing the bare minimum at home, while also engaging in positive behaviors to try to feel better.
Don't give up on yourself! We are all very valuable.  |
Unfortunately he is not an ex, or someone I've ever had. He's someone I used to work with that I fell for. He's married. He's 18 years older than me. I used to get to see him every day, now I have to force myself to stay away from seeing him. I haven't gone to see him in over 3 weeks. I'm proud of myself. But the dreams are really getting to me. I'm not safe when I sleep, this stuff makes its way into my dreams. I have dreams a lot where I'm looking for him, continually searching, sometimes throughout the whole night's dreaming, and I never find him. Or if I do find him, I just hold him and cry. I don't remember my dreams last night, but I don't think I dreamt of him last night.
