When I can't decide things (which as LL pointed out during therapy this past week seems to be happening alot lately) I tend to fall back in to going with the flow and see what happens.

But as to my high school reunion - I make the decision based on what I would gain by going, do I have any unfinished business with anyone that will be there and my finances.

when mine comes up if I haven't missed it yet I won't be going. one because I don't have the financial means to just pick up and go on the drop of an alumni card. twm because my child is in residential and doing alot of unsafe behaviors. I can just see me off clear across the country and DHS need my imput or need to notify me for example in January my child was diagnosed with sleep apnea and needed surgery. I was called and told to come to the DHS office as soon as possible from a caseworker who rarely calls. and three when I was in high school - well physically I was in school but mentally I was playing my piano lessons, floating in la la land and failing classes left and right and just barely squeeking through to graduation thanks in part to a teacher who was on every side of me some days to push me and pull me through my classes. The highlight of my time was the piano lessons, choris and musicals... Oh yea I was actually very popular on two occasions- once when I actually caught a baseball in right field that would have other wise been a home run. The shocker was - I was a girl who could never catch or hit a baseball even if my life depended on it and I did it bare handed and not feel a thing. The gym teacher and classmates all said I just reached up and plucked that S##k#r out of the sky as if I wa splucking an apple off a tree. Everyone wanted me to teach them how to catch a homerun type flyball without a mitt. and the other time? I shy cry if someone looked at me wrong halled off and punched a teacher. From that day on no one bothered me in school and every time we played vollyball someone would yell out when it was my turn to serve " Just imagine it was mrs. R's face and give her another fat lip and bruise that will last a week" Other then those situations I would not even be able to hold a conversation down memory road. tell them about my present life? Well theres not not much to add that they didn't read in print or during any of my public speaking engagements. as for what they are doing now. I know what is going on in the lives of those that I cared abot back them and the rest who cares not me.

so basically how I came to my decision not to go is t hat I looked at what high school reunions are for - catching up with those you liked and flaunt how much you have changed to those that bullied, and or envied.
The looked at what I would be gaining, my financial situation and if it was do able.

For me the bottom line was no its not worth it - there is nothing I would gain from it and I have no unfinished business with any of my classmates.

Hang in there whther or not you decide to go I know that the decision you make will be the right one because there is no wrong answers for this.