Reminds me of depression.

I was told by those in the program to grab my emotional muscle and put my foot on the floor and follow it with the other foot. Don't know if it will help you but sometimes I still have to do this and I'm sober almost 20 years now. It took a lot to get me sober and I fiercely protect what I've got. You can too.

Getting sober and staying sober is work, sometimes harder than others. The promises are there if you work for them.