Sharing is caring. Good of you to post, emotional purging 's healthy. Your ex is acting rather strange, hard to believe she pretended for so long, but I guess in most cases, your family whom you grew up with, know you best. You're doing a great job with the kids, kudos they are blessed to have you. I hope you learn to forgive yourself in time...I dont have any advice, sorry. Just wanted to let you know I'm listening