I don't have any advice, but I understand where you are at right now...31, and also similar thoughts and experiences...also kinda not sure where I'm at, lol. So right now, just not doing anything...(plus the thought of anyone touching me right now gives me the heebie geebies, have some ideas why thanks to peeps here ) ANYWAY, not trying to talk about me too much but just wanted you to know you aren't alone!