I am still struggling with keep my weight down to more normal. what can I do. I gave up Pizza, only eat spagetti once a month, make my family eat meals that have vegetables in them too much, I won't take them to McDee or Burger King for fries, and shakes like we used to do, not because it costs more but because I keep saying Taco Bell is healthier. I want to be more bending. I too want to eat a greasy sandwich, a slice of pizza, but the urge to purge, well, I can't control it enough, so I am a stick in the mud. Do people still have picnics with families in the park? Are there any happy thougts left for me to think concerning meal time with friends? I really wanted to stop using laxitives, but seldom do I get the chance to eat the way I know "my" body needs for "me" to stay true to the promises; but what promises did I really make to begin with about eating food? I want to get clearer ideas for myself about the eating disorder, or for that matter the eating order. Can it be what some call balanced, healthy, yet restricting and not be sickening? I worry that there is no diet that dosen't make me or my family sick.