This was kinda brought up on the couch....

Control of ones emotions, thoughts, feelings, personal reactions etc... in therapy helpful? harmful?

Are you in control of these things, hard to make a connection?
Do you relinquish control is the connection easier to make?

I'm thinking it may be impossible for some to give up control of ones self, especially if your childhood was jacked up. Some people, myself included, essentially raised themselves or they were controlled by others and now they are in control and won't give that up. Its hard to break this pattern, as one truly believes it will bring horrific consequences. On the other hand I think others, give all control away, as they too had a jacked up childhood and never had any control, and still believe that they have no control. These people tend to dump it all on T and have no trouble letting T in. I think It is all based on fears , rationalized by our own past experiences. We have to believe that x will not bring y, even though it did before. We are no longer in the same environments or situations. There is a tremendous amount of fear that one must overcome to take this first step and "chill out", to let T in. I wish I wasn't so scared , I guess.

Any thoughts?

It has taken me 10 months at 2 sessions a week and lots of emailing and although I do have a connection, its not the deep one I think I need.... so I see that as no connection as its not meaningful.