thank you confused. you're right. i'm lonely and isolated and away from friends and family and human interaction. it's like i'm in a bubble now after two years this way. you echo what my therapist has told me, but for some reason, maybe because i've become so comfortable in my isolation, i am having trouble seeing forest through the trees sometimes.

thank you so much for the links! i'm starting training for hospice volunteering next week. i know i need a support group too. for some reason my husband doesn't seem keen on that and i'm not sure why, and he has the only car so i feel powerless. i have to force myself to find a way to get support. i'm sure i can find somewhere the bus will take me to.

thank you again - it really helped.