Thanks for your help! Yes, it is definitely up to him to do something. Of course I am wondering if he is really into me or not. It is a new relationship even though we share a lot (he has told me so many intimate details about himself and I about myself). When he said he loved me, he sounded so sincere and he said he did believe it but that he doesn't know for sure anymore.
I just broke up with him yesterday. It is weird. I don't seem to feel anything. My best friend said it is because I don't believe it is over. I think it is true.
I asked him yesterday if he wanted to end it all, he didn't answer but added that the fact that he didn't want to see me over the week-end (we did see each other) probably meant he didn't love me (don't you know it when you don't love somebody ???), so I said I would do him the favor and let him go.
He said ok but he looked devastated, especially when I gave him back the birthday present he gave me a few days before. He was so sweet when we parted, even though it was what he wanted.
This morning I sent a collective mail. I suppose I wanted to hurt him on an unconscious level: saying, you know, now you are just one amongst others.
He answered within 5 min. He seemed really angry. His mail was short and cold, which probably means it gets to him more than I expected.
I sent an e-mail to apologize (it wasn't ok), but stating again that things were probably for the best now. He has sent a kind answer, wishing me well, apologizing blah, blah, blah.
Si I guess I was wrong and he didn't love me after all. Just how can somebody be so convincing ? When I was with a guy I didn't love, I was never that convincing, never, even before I realized I didn't love him. He even told me when he fell in love with me 3 weeks ago. How can that be ? Is it easy to fake or what ?
This time I really thought, it was my lucky day. I finally got it right. Did I scare
him ? How can a love story start so well and end so quickly. The first 3 days were just so perfect. We were making plans for the future. He seemed so happy to think of the future with me. Where has it all gone? Can you really change your mind so quickly ? I am lost. I don't understand anything anymore. This time my instinct was telling me it was going to be fine. Funny.