Thoughts and prayer to you Chandler. It's great that you are in your own apartment.

Feeling isolated can bring on those depressed feeling. I think it is great that you want to connect with a church. Some of themhave meetings for members like you that are feeling lonely. One of the bigger churches in my area have support groups of allkinds, support for women with young children, or support for those with depression, or support for those looking for work. Check it out.

I think you would feel good about yourself to start doing somethink like that. Church isn't a place just for Spiritual growth, most of the more "liberal" churches are very socially awar of fitting the needs of the community.

What have you learned about living on your own from all your therapy? Are you still in touch with any one from your past hospitalization/program?

Good luck and I'll keep you in my prayers.