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Nov 09, 2012, 07:12 PM
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Member Since: Jan 2012
Posts: 356
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Originally Posted by George H.
I read the thread you linked to and visited your home page.
I'm just not getting a good picture of where your low self esteem comes from if it is indeed low. Do you have any idea where this all started? I didn't get the impression that it started with the accident. Have you always felt this way?
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Like many childhood was a pain and yer things sort of stem from there but those things don't cause me problems and I am not bother by my childhood. However in a sense the accident felt worse for me because it link in with past feeling and thought's but then somehow they got extreme empathises on them by the accident and took on a new form for me. If you can understand me here. How I am now though is to do with the accident because it all stems around thoughts of that, in which most people's answer to is stop looking back to the past, leave it or you need to be here now in the present. Well if I could just be here and now I would have been a different me and not reacted as I did or at least been or done thigns differently but I reacted how I reacted and the accident still causes me problems I think, but only in that it change me and I can't ever be how I use to be I can only hope I can improve on how I am now in a few araes to be how I would like to be, but I am not kidding myself in thinking I could be somthing I am not, I know I will never be like I should or you would expect a person to be. However what really gets me is my body reacts in way in which I can't control which is to do with the accident, Any stress feels like that of stress you would associate with such an event, which actually the stress I should be feeling is very little to the situations going on in my life, but I react to it with such strong emotions and reactors. Which people just don't get and put down to oh she just one of those people that everything is extreme and drama.... er yer I get it you all get stress as well and the same situation you and I am in causes you stress and worry. However do they dam well feel the stressed to the extreme I get it no they don't and it has been 6 years now and I am sick of feeling constantly in this state or having to think how the hell can I not react like that or even what is really worse will I ever just be able to feel stress like some people feel, which is on a level which is acceptable or required for the given situation. Many of the thoughts I hold of myself are based on my life after the accident and how I reacted and how things have gone on since that point.
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