Dear T, feeling very out of it. like i am not connected to anything or anyone. just kinda floating around and around. about to be dropped any minute into the atmosphere... too weird.

please be gentle when i see you.

i don't know if i can talk about chicago. you told me a long time ago that i was catastrophosizing about it. and that means "making a mountain out of a molehill"..... how you decided this was a molehill i have no idea. it was a major upheaval in my life. so, how can i be expected to talk about it knowing how you feel????? it leaves me unsafe, vulnerable, and alone.
no thanks, have enough of that as it is!!!!
please help me with this otherwise i will never be able to talk about it. please be gentle, not mad, and no yelling.