I think for me its more of self acknowledgement and lack of self love....its not that I hate me, I would hang out with me if I were someone else, although I feel like I would annoy me....seriously can't believe how crazy and self absorbed I sound right now, but its true. Self love to me sounds arrogant, like I'm tooting my own horn and that too me is NOT something I want to portray...so I choose to pretend I have no needs and really no feelings, I guess I try to think I don't exists.