I get what your saying. I think no matter what illness we have we all feel like we struggle day after day. The analogy of the violin makes me think about all the messes I have had in my life. My marraige, my job problems, my family, none are totally ruined but somedays I want to quit working at maintaining them. They cost alot in time, money, patience,etc. It is the feeling of why? I always come back to my kids. That is why I keep trying to work at what I have to. I would expect the same from them even when it seemed pointless. However, remember that there are times when things come together almost as perfectly as the playing a sweet melody on the violin. This will warm your heart knowing it was all worth it.