Thanks so much "darkeyes", for your honesty. I wouldn't want it any other way. I'm so glad for you that you are happy with having one child and adoption is such a wonderful gift to a child.
I do have a fue questions for you though if you won't to answer them.
Did you know you had bipolar when you got your child?and
Were you unable to conseive a child yourself or was it just what you wanted to do? Adopt I mean?

I agree with all you have said. I have been thinking about my options for a year now and I'm still so unsure what to do. Everything you said, I have alread though about over and over. Its just I don't know what to leason to , my HEART or my HEAD. and sometimes thay are telling me the same thing and other times there differant. I have discused it with my physitrist and she is unsure about what I shoud do as well. We have discused all the pro's and con's. She said see will support what ever dissision I make.
I also think about how I can be a better mother this time. I wasn't dignossed before my first 2 and I was quit unstable untill I was dignossed and on the proper meds. If I did have a child I would have somethings in my favor this time around.
1) I know so much about my illness now and I am older and am able to make better choices for my children now. I feel I am a great mom now where in the past when I wasn't dignossed, I wish I could have done more for them.
2) I can go right back on my meds. this time and get better control with hard work and meds.
Yes I know, I could get real bad before I get better and that is one of my bigest conserns. I do have a great support system though and that is half the battle.
Anyway, I'm sound like i'm tring to convince you of this and I'm really not. Like I said I do agree with your oppinion and I thank you for it. Every bit of help is welcome.

Again, thanks so much, Jacqui :-))