I am glad he was able to guide you through and able to hear what you were saying.

I feel like this, too:

I asked him something like, “what do you do with knowing something new about what happened to you, when there is already so much known about it, maybe this thing is true and maybe it’s not."

"but it does shift the corners of the story?”

Ever since my cousin has been telling me stuff about his version of what happened. It is all very confusing, but mostly what I am left with is that nothing is safe. When I have those body memories you mentioned, I dig my nails into my arms or I try to cut them away with razors.