I'm not sure.. I feel kinda bad asking this because I know some have been through a lot more then I have.
Can you tell me if this sounds like PTSD. I'm going to give just limitedf details because it's incedably hard to talk about.
I can remember the date very well when normally I am horrible with dates or numbers.
It was involving a great betrayal my husband did. It caused my life to downwardly spiral panic attacks got much worse I was isolated no car no friends in a new area because we were suppose to be moving and he had not yet moved in nor did he. I attempted sucide clearly failed. I lost as I can only describe as large part of my family members they were my pets that were supposed to be move the following da that he sold to slaughter many I raised from the time they were born never found out what happened to some. I have nighares well over a year since its all happened. Writing this my anxiety and anger are getting higher and higher. Some of the phone calls and days and weeks that followed are just a blur and I can't remember clearly. I feel a extreme anger towards myself for not being able to stop what happened and that I didn't know what would happen. Even to this day I sometimes think I deserve to die because of what happened. I am angry with my husband for what he did, his trying to lie his way out of it then threatening me but I think more hurt and shattered.
I'm not sure if it's PTSD like I said. I didn't see them taken or killed. But I certainly have nightmares.