I'm more concerned about the child's welfare given that he is the source of the problem. And to say 'I'd never hurt my child,' well, all I can say is go read the MailOnline out of the UK. Every day there's stories of mothers killing their babies for no more reason than we see in this post.

I hope the OP will give some serious thought to venting online about things involving her child as she could end up being reported to the police--these sites have to take threats seriously. And if that happened, she would lose custody of her child.........

These type of vents are best done on a word processor so they can be deleted after the OP calms down.