Well, there is nothing wrong with having a "desire to succeed". Often a motivator can also be when others tell you that you "wont get there", for some that brings out even more determination.

There is nothing wrong with being "determined". A top coach will say that it isn't always those that have the natural ability that make it, it is those that have the "genuine drive" that tend to be the successes.

It sounds like you have a mother that doesn't "believe" in you. I don't know where the "narcisistic" diagnosis comes from, some therapists misdiagnose that. You "could" have some trama there, I can't diagnose you and I don't know you enough or have enough of your history or even how old you are etc.

But, a "broken spirit" can be mended, so keep working at it. I hope you have a good therapist to help you with that. You only live once so if you "love to dance" then dance and "make sure you enjoy it".

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