Oh I am so sorry to hear that. You are more than your urges and are strong enough to fight them. I truly believe in you and want you to be able to enjoy your happiness. I struggle with the same battle every day, but I want you to know that it does get better and you will get stronger. I am so happy you are sleeping it off right now. That often helps. Please consider talking to your mental health worker and maybe increasing your treatment sessions' frequency/intensity. You are wonderful and so special, and I don't want anything to happen to you, dear.

Love + hugs,
Sunshine xx