I was diagnosed with treatment resistant depression years ago. I have taken more different meds than I can keep track of. I have had numerous ECT treatments that have caused complete memory loss. I am constantly irritable and angry. I think I hate my spouse but I have to rely on him because I have been unemployed for years. I worked so hard to get my law degree and pass the Bar exam and I am disgusted with myself because I cannot seem to get out of this pit. I can't talk to him without screaming or fighting. Everything he does makes me crazy. I wish I could leave but I can't. I have tried therapy but it was useless. I am so incredibly unhappy. Sorry for the rant. I have no friends or other family to talk to. I am going to the pdoc next week and he will want to know how I am. I can't share this with him or anyone. Is this anger and extreme irritability...and even rage at times normal?