About -50, damn alcohol for wearing off, it had made me feel a little better but what goes up must come down I guess. Now I just can't quit thinking of reasons why I should kill myself or ways I could potentially go about it.

And I feel like a f*** up for eating my klonopin like its candy, think I need a higher dosage anyways but yeah trying to not depend on alcohol or cannabis to control my symptoms via prescription meds, since its too hard to afford enough cannabis and or alcohol to keep me going. But then getting a high enough dosage and refills on time can be a real pain in the ***.