Thanks for answering my question, Anne. Yes, I can be self-punishing, but I don't think that's what I am doing this time. It feels different; bad, but different. I have tried containing/compartmentalizing things before, but it has never worked well for me. I have a little too much of the ruminating form of OCD to do it successfully. The only way I can get my mind off things is to do something that requires full sensory attention. I can do simple to moderate tasks and still ruminate at the same time.

You take care too, Anne and thanks for sharing your experience.