Triggers for me
Certain topics of conversation like one’s where they can pick up too much info on me and start to see the cracks that I am not a well-rounded person like they are. This generally leads to anxiety of they will find out or wonder why and then find out about me, my past. Usually any topic of interest outside of work or how you know those people, jobs, and generally what do you do with your life? I may be just a bit paranoid as well. But it always gets me because I can’t ever just turn around and go I get anxiety and gave up on humans long ago, I generally prefer not to be involved and like to be left alone so I can keep some sanity and just get on with my life in the only way possible, but that’s never an option. So I come across as nervous as hell and someone that’s got something to hide, so yes conversations in which people get info on me triggers the hell out of me every time.
Certain places depending on the environment of that place eg busy shops big trigger, anywhere that is busy, too much traffic, certain times of day only makes certain places go able and not as bad as a trigger. Any place of uncertainty of the outcome or environment like how things will pan out or having to go to a place like an interview and not really knowing where you are going and what’s going or happen or you can’t be sure as to how or when this or that is going to happen. Eg not sure how long it is going to last, not really sure how you’re going to get back once it is finished as you can’t be sure on times etc.
Certain days and months of the year trigger me if I was significantly trigger before at that time in the past, it is like it has left an mark on me and I will always get noticeability triggered at the same time each year even if the next year there is no reason to be trigger at that time, just the fact that once before it happened at that time badly it can be enough to offset me the next year just because.
Certain people, this is bad but they know too much about me and I just can’t be around them or stuff has happened between us and because of that it make’s it unbearable to be around them because we trigger each other.
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