Isolation is a really bad idea for me. I've got this brain that hates me. It's really bad company. Monks have control of thoughts and moods. They're less easily distracted by life and negativity. We try, but lack that level of control. I really do know those feelings, though. I also use a wheelchair, so there's this double layer of isolation, like I'm seeing life through protective glass and I can't reach out and touch it, but it's around me. It's easily to give in and isolate. As usual, what is easiest is not necessarily the best option. Hang in there!