I have been pretty sure that I have an eating disorder for a while. It's scary. My BMI is about 17.4. I desire to lose weight. I know it's wrong and crazy. I am just starting to realise that I might have a problem. I get tired easily but I don't exercise much at all. I enjoy it when people comment about how thin I am. Sometimes I act as though I don't like it but really I do. I don't know what I want from sharing this. I don't know how I have fooled myself for so long. I would never have guessed that I had an eating disorder. I thought that I was fine. Now I start to see stuff and realise the way that I think can't be right. People try to get me to eat and it makes me want to eat less.
Sometimes I am scared of peple leaving me so I think that I will not eat as much so that I am kind of punishing them. Does that make any sense?