thanks ej, but that's not it. she gets the exact same amount, regardless. i know what the insurance gives her, and then i pay the balance. in fact, before we did anything with the insurance, i told her that i didn't want anything to effect her finances. so we agreed that everything would stay as it was, and i'd pay whatever was owed regardless of what they paid. it makes no difference to her where the money is coming from, as long as she gets the full fee. so if i owe $600 for the month, the insurance would pay $300 and i'd pay $300. now, they're paying $132, and i have to pay $468 - which i can't afford.

i think i'm just really hurt that she'd so easily let me cut back in sessions. i think that's what's bothering me most. i know i should be mad at the insurance company for being a$$holes, but i'm mad at her for what appears to be not caring about not seeing me as often.