Thanks Rainbowzz

Really tired and lonely. Have T tomorrow night. Scared. Was so lonely last night I even called the "m". She wouldn't talk. she has a new bf and he was coming over. nothing changes. never had time for me when I was little. why should I think that anything has changed?

H say's I spend to much time on the computer and I need to go out and find real friends. i've never had friends before. so at 33 i'm suppose to go out and get some?? yeah like that will be happening. he say's he's going to take my computer from me. if I didn't have a computer I would get out of bed. I'm either on the computer or in bed. wish ppl could understand.