I agree, it's good to get it out then it doesn't stay trapped in our heads being magnified by our distorted perceptions.

You did something great there thought MDD, you made a gratitude list , to me that says growth. Hang in there, I definitely understand...really, truly...

I also agree with Carol, pain is relative...we only know what we know and we are the ones inside of it...we only see the world through our eyes and our minds, our pain is like no others. Your pain is valid. I find often if we push it away we're reinforcing our belief that it is invalid...this is not the case. You are valid , your pain is too.
I get it.
Feel free to open up and vent, there is nothing but love and support here.

Much love your way.