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Originally Posted by RA1N130W
I'm sorry if this isn't the right place to post such a thing. But I'm trying desperately to remain sober. I have regular OP meetings with recovery centers & therapists. But nothing seems to be helping. My most recent appointment revealed that I'm a qualified candidate for a 28 day IP rehab program. That really terrifies me more than anything. But I still can't stop. Can anyone help me? Give me any advice? I'm seriously desperate at this point. I want nothing more than to stop, but I just can't seem to now matter what I do. After re-reading my post, that last sentence bring tears to my eyes. How can I be unable to do something that I want so bad? I'm not trying to be a drama queen, but please, someone help me please.
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having the
desire to quit is a necessary step for success. now the
committment to stop. that can be challenging but done. keep no booze in the house. make a list. draw a line down the middle. one column title "benefits of not drinking". the other "what does alcohol provide to me in my life". the first one will be short
at first. alcohol has shackled you in a viscious destructive pattern. when i did the second column some things i wrote down...
can't be with others cause i don't want for them to know how much i drink. thus a negative-lonely and social isolation.
throwing up bile. certainly not something i enjoyed doing each day.
anxiety and panic attacks created by drinking alcohol.
no choices. alcohol dictated my every moment. thus no freedom.
depression. alcohol is a depressant.
no will to live YET i wanted to live.
no bath, no food for many days at a time. YUCK.
numbs my emotions so i don't have to feel emotional pain.
hope this helps. i re-read my list(s) every time i wanted to drink. many readings! went to AA to learn how they did what i felt i couldn't master.
been sober 23 years so these and other things help me stay sober.
we're here for you. i'm so glad you posted.