So I recently recieved a group email from a college friend. From this email I found the email address of another friend I used to be very close to in college. The friendship actually went downhill towards the end (I was depressed & needy & ended up being kind of mean to him). I've seen him only once or twice in the past 9 years or so.... and he wasn't overly friendly (not rude - just cordial).

I *really* want to email him... just to see how he's doing, but also to kinda hash out why I was so horrid to him back in college, to appologize and hopefully reconcile. I mean, even if he were married & had kids, I'd still want to be friends and exchange a random email from time to time with him.

But the more rational (fearful?) part of my mind thinks I should just let it all go. Water under the bridge. If he wants to contact me - he can find my email address the same way I found his... and he can write to me if he wants to. But clearly... it's been 9 years and I haven't let go of it yet. Maybe I need some kind of formal closure?

So what should I do? Email him or not?