Ohhhh MY GOD!!!!!!!!!! what a horrible day!!!!! Been a long time since I've cried that hard in therapy. T is anxious about his surgery.. fearful of what might happen or what this growth is. We had a really good talk today. About lots of things. He wants me to find something meaningful in my life and work on attaining it. I have no friggin idea where to start! The one thing that I always wanted I cant have. And thats kids. Since our niece had ( the empty sac) and that dream of maybe adopting her baby is gone.. hubby doenst want to adopt another baby at all. And no fostering either. I cant even go there. There are so many things that he said to me and I need to put them into perspective before I talk anymore about them. I am just feeling such anger, fear and pain right now. And I feel like I have no one to talk to anymore. I dont know who to trust anymore or if I can trust anyone else. I dont know what I am going to do....