Thank you for your encouragement. I try to love, but it is not perceived as such. I have BPD so my ways of showing love are misread and my emotional responses are dysfunctional. I, like many people, just want someone who will love me and stand by me through it all. I want a real, honest, down-to-earth relationship. I figure by now my chances are pretty slim. I guess one just never knows what the future holds