I am in a similar boat...I mean some of the things I've gotten pissed about and had it escalate into basically an adult throwing a fit are so embarrassing I don't even want to say it here.

I mean then I feel people should have every reason to hate me for it, but people who care assure me they don't hate me even if I do have my flaws, and everyone has conflicts and disagreements with each other or can get fed up with certain traits of people at some points. I guess conflict sort of scares me because I never really learned any healthy coping skills of how to have a civil disagreement or without yelling and such.