not sure what to say if anyone will see this
if anyone will understand or even care but i
just had to put it down somewhere i have an
ed been dx as beign anorexic by my pdoc and
a dr been anemic alot of times started listening
to people started eatign more than i think i really
should have ive gained alot of weight i see it im
gettign worse everyday but no one else seems to
see what i do plus i miss being able to say no to
it all it felt good the control i had my tight feeling
i had in my stomach and it wasnt that i liked being
anemic it just sort of meant something i know i
must sound sick in a way but i do miss alot of it
of what it was what it did for me who i was who i
know i am but no one else seems to liek that me
think part of me doesnt either really but a bigger
part of me does and its this part that just wants me
to say **** it all and just go back to what i know..
lex