hi,
ive just read simon's post "is this natural" and wanted to say something on a similar subject without hijacking his thread.
my father is a good guy. i think he tries hard but just doesnt get it right. with help ive come to put the label "emotionally abusive" on him and ive said this to my mother who hasnt argued with it... basically he was, to say the least, a horrible male role model. either crushing my self esteem or making me feel utterly helpless or plain scared. and he was the only male who really had any part in my life.
on top of that i remember being once touched "there" by a female babysitter in a totally humiliating situation.
anyways... i always wondered if either or both of those things (being touched by a woman and having a very negative male role model) could somehow explain me being a lesbian now... i just cant get the idea out of my head... any thoughts or explanations at all would be great please...
thanks
biiv
ummmm... ps... while im on this subject... sigh. i dont know... has anyone ever had the feeling theyve forgotten something or maybe there are blanks that could or should be filled in but you dont know what you might have forgotten or maybe there are other reasons you feel or think certain things? reasons you havent thought of instead of it maybe coming from something you dont know you ve forgotten? sheesh. sorry. not sure that makes any sense...